Ana

Jan 24
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life update

August 5th I went on a journey with Sound We Sleep to California. 36 hours straight in the van with 4 dudes, sun shower, og cali kushhh whasssuupppp.

August 13th I met a band called Ice Nine Kills. Don’t bother looking them up… they suck.

August 15th I got sucked into a black hole of drunken emotions that is David Sieling.

I lived in a hotel in Ocala for a month… then with Dave Walz and Monica Jean in Orlando.

October 30th I began my journey to New York by following INK on tour.

I made it to Rochester, NY and shacked up with Dave (who at this point was a sober mastermind)

November 25th I turned 21 years old (uneventful evening)

January 1st I realized i had spent the entire year of 2009… single.

January 15th Dave is sexy as fuck.

I finished all 5 seasons of desperate housewives. I watched Avatar opening night in IMAX 3D… and then again about a week later. 24 is a great show. Soooo basically… ever since I moved to Rochester I’ve spent every day of my life watching TV.

January 18th I flew to Florida to see Narella for her 2nd birthday on the 19th.

January 21st Had a great night at a great bar called the Cock and Bull.

January 22nd Let’s talk about feelings… Used, pensive, disrespected, heartbroken, indignant, choleric… i think that sums up how I felt for the next 2 days.

January 24th I got a sun burn for the first time in MONTHS. It feels good. I don’t remember what Dave looks like. It will be nice to see him when I get back to Rochester on the 31st and he has a beard… muawha!

We chase these days down with talks of the places that we will go.

Jul 28
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keeping me awake

“it’s been like this now for days,
my heart is out at sea,
my head all over the place,
i’m loosing sence of time,
and everything tastes the same,
i’ll be home in a day,
i fear thats a month to late.”

Jul 05
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Now I’m certain that there’s much more to gain.

You’ve introduced me to the moment, but I’m looking to stay for good.

Jun 27
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Auf Wiedersehen.

I slept waaayyyy later than I wanted today. I woke up just in time to see my G1 sell on Ebay. I cut my bangs last night… eehhhh. I also took out my contacts I’ve had in for the past 3 months… just to soak for the night, I’ll put them back in later, glasses give me a fucking headache.

Jun 22
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Just… Thanks.

I was told I need to “step up” in life… TWICE in one night. It’s not easy right now, and so I’ve been told… “it’s going to get a lot harder.” These past few weeks in New York have been awesome.. I don’t regret a thing. I met someone who made me realize nice guys do exist, so I’m setting my standards higher. After my aunt gave me a little piece of her mind, she told me she wanted me to live up here… I really can’t fathom that right now… especially since I just let someone (who I actually considered moving up here for) get really close to me, run me in circles, and well.. shut me down. That’s all I have to say about that. I am emotionally drained, physically dizzy, and lost but I am smiling :) Apparently Danielle and I had the same little epiphany today…

PROBLEM:  You seem anchored in one spot, unable to move forward.
SOLUTION: You should try to think more positive thoughts and set some short term goals that you can reach, then set more. In this way you will move ahead in your endeavors.

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Even though I really don’t talk about my daughter a lot, she is a huge part of my life and my fucked up everyday routine. I am very thankful to have such an understanding, helpful family to get me through this rough spot in my life. No matter how I portray my feelings, my little girl always comes first. If you can’t accept the fact I have a kid, I can’t accept you.

Jun 18
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Mung Daal “Chowderrrr!!! WHAT did you put in these sandwiches???!!”
Chowder “ummm…. you know… some sand….. a witch…”

Mung Daal “Chowderrrr!!! WHAT did you put in these sandwiches???!!”

Chowder “ummm…. you know… some sand….. a witch…”

Jun 13
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the cereus bloomed tonight.

the cereus bloomed tonight.

Jun 10
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Positive Crisis.

I woke up at 9am, forgot to eat breakfast, picked up kobi, dropped him off, picked him up and drove him back home, picked him up again and then dropped him off again, picked him back up and then dropped him off home once more. And I’m getting paid how much?

Cleaned my room. before & after…

& then my hair turned orange so I dyed it.

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Hey now, look up.

I arrived home from New York yesterday at 11:00 am…. Okay let’s get this out of the way… it’s fucking hot here; the air is so thick I can barely breathe. Of course I got off the plane with a long sleeve shirt and jeans on. I took a cold shower, blow drying my hair was literally a trip to hell, and I spent a total of thirty seconds straightening my hair and then gave up. Goodbye flat iron for the rest of the summer. On the flip side it didn’t take Danielle too long to show up… it was like I just saw her yesterday. Before I could figure out what was actually going on I was sitting at Shawn’s house with a beer in my hand. I was asleep before 1:00 am… I know… shocker.

New York May 21st – June 9th

My grandparents are on their death bed… having been for the past 2 years, we’ve all come to accept it. So I drove up with my brother in the Legend to say our goodbyes. I was pretty amazed the car made it the entire 1300 miles without a problem. This car is not made for the busted ass roads of NY.

A gas station in Hardeeville, South Carolina was my favorite stop. Cop car covered in kittens, a stray dog in the trash can and fire works in the gas station… hmm guess you had to be there. I fell asleep through the following states and awoke in Virginia… in eight o’clock traffic… worst experience of my life. If you live in, around, or near Virginia, we will never be friends.

Washington pit stop…

On Memorial Day I went on a date… it was more like a tour of downtown Albany. The restaurant we were supposed to eat at was closed, we didn’t have much to talk about except trash compactors and buildings, and it was cold as shit. Yup, a real fucking calamity. I was confounded as to how a second, more productive hangout happened… roller skating, bar, calzone, movie. UP in 3D was hilarious… William passing out half way through was NOT.

I went to a party with my cousin and his girlfriend… a bunch of nerds… and I’m not using that term loosely. When one of them tried to kiss me I decided I had enough and was rescued by Will. We walked around Washington park and then ended up in a bar AGAIN, I know right how lame of him to take me to a bar two nights in a row (jokes). Bars in New York don’t close until 4am… #1 reason why I would move there.

Adventure to Indian ladder…

I helped my aunt demolish her shed…  it’s still standing… shows my work ethic. There were a family of skunks underneath, it was my first time seeing them in person, and they’re adorable. It just struck me I really didn’t spend too much time with my family while I was up there. I was too infatuated with my new friend, going out to eat, and sightseeing. I’d like to think days go by faster than nights.

Joey and I stopped at Albany’s Largest head shop…

I went camping and hiking my last weekend visiting. To sum it up (in no particular order)… exhaustion, ticks, sandals, rape, labatt blue light, pizza, rock skipping, “put your clothes back on!”

The weather was perfect. It was all just breathtaking (which is a pun in SO many ways).

My last evening up there was… oppressive. But I enjoyed it :)

I’m going back again soon for the funeral. I’m not quite sure how I feel about everything. For now I’ll take it one day at a time.

Jun 09
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Just Don’t!

Don’t ever hold yourself back from expressing the way you feel. Don’t let past experiences bring you down and get the best of you, instead learn from them and advance… procure strength and courage. Don’t ever feel like you can’t handle a situation, don’t let your emotions overcome your mind. And most importantly, don’t hinder yourself from enjoying blissful moments because you’ve got your head stuck in the future.

I shouldn’t have to give a reason why.

Jun 07
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Speeding up to red lights…

just to stop and kiss.

Apr 12
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it’s been a month

and i still haven’t done anything about my car bumper… just replaced the duct tape. my poor car has a nail in every tire and wants oil badly. so i drove an hour to northport yesterday.

Flop (joshua) had his first REAL flaming Dr. Pepper (his arm caught on fire). I cut his hair, plucked his eyebrows and popped his zits, yes i am a true friend. I basically spent the entire night straightening hair and photographing dave.

Then when i was ready for sleep time i found myself in a car on my way to a party. I finally met the 5th member of sound we sleep, daniel “rodney,” and suddenly felt the urge to bombard him in the face with ping bong balls. I guess it was a random act of immature drunkenness because I found him attractive (not so much in soberality). Last night was probably the most drunk i’ve ever been in 2009.

Oh yeah, today is easter. I’ve still got eggs to find. I know im 20 years old… but these ones have money in them :)

Mar 14
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Are KFC cups the only ones that have a “Dr. Pepper” punch on the lid? It’s not cola, diet, or other… it’s Dr. Pepper.

Are KFC cups the only ones that have a “Dr. Pepper” punch on the lid? It’s not cola, diet, or other… it’s Dr. Pepper.

Mar 03
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my fingers are burning

meet my new best friend

i got the G1 today. i am absolutely in love.

i can go on and on but i dont want to sound like too much of a nerd :)

P.S.  joshua— g1 beats Sk

Mar 02
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what a rip.

ive been streaming a lot of videos online lately… via megavideo. and it cuts out after 72 minutes so i never get to see the ends of anything.i’m beggining to not be able to sleep at night.

i ripped the front bumper off my car the other day backing out of my driveway.. it caught on the basketball pole. annnnnd that was when i met my neighbors sons for the first time. they wouldnt stop trying to get my phone number like the fact that i lived next door didnt occur to them. anyway it’s duct taped securly on there… well for now.

i went to nick and eva’s baby shower.. i ate the most amazing 7 layer bean dip ive ever had.

On another note G1 tomorrow…